I am not the pushy sales-person type. This is why these home-based businesses have never worked for me. I feel like an ass hole harassing my friends about buying whatever product I am currently pushing. I know my friends appreciate this quality in me. So, therefore, I find myself in a bit of a bind here, because I have found a product that I really like, that I know I can benefit from, and that a lot of my friends would be interested in. So what am I to do?! Do I become the annoying friend on Facebook who posts a new status every day about this awesome new product, forcing people to unfollow me and refuse to try this stuff on principle? No, no, there can be none of that... so here's my solution. I will say what I need to say to promote this stuff right here in my blog. That way those who are interested can learn what they need to know, and those that are not interested can remain blissfully ignorant to various Plexus propaganda.
I have always been very leery about supplements. Those that know me well, know that I try to take good care of my body, avoiding soaps, lotions, antiperspirants, all forms of medication unless absolutely necessary, and processed food (of course I have moments of weakness, I'm only human...). Supplements to me have always fallen under the same category as these things- poison that I will not put into my body. I tried Plexus out of desperation mostly (lets be honest), but also out of curiosity. I have a friend who posted a very inspiring photo of the difference in her body after a few days on this product. I immediately started researching Plexus, curious about if this sort of result was common, and of course how safe the product was. What I saw was, that the ingredients are all natural and that people have nothing but good things to say about the product. Even when I searched for Plexus reviews on the open web, not associated with the actual Plexus website, I found some skeptics of course, but nothing that would make me think twice about putting this stuff in my body. So I decided to give it a try.
I ordered a 7-day challenge pack, which included a 7 day supply of Plexus Slim, and Accelerator. I couldn't wait to receive my order and was excited about the prospects, but I also remained cautious and skeptical. I wanted to give this stuff a fair shot, but I was definitely prepared to be disappointed. My order arrived within the week, and I started with weighing myself and taking my measurements. After all, this was an experiment.
The first day, I didn't notice much of a difference. Which I thought was good. My body is pretty clean inside, and when I do indulge and eat things that are bad for me, my body generally wastes no time in punishing me. Usually in the forms of headaches, tiredness, or stomach aches. I had none of these symptoms while on Plexus.
The second day, I noticed that I did not feel so attached to my normal snack times and I was not having my usual daily cravings for chocolate and various other sweet, bready, creamy things. The third day was when I really couldn't deny it anymore, this stuff was working. First of all, I had a ton of energy and spent the day puttering around the house cleaning everything and getting caught up on laundry. I got more done on this one day than I normally do in an entire week... or even two weeks. We all know I hate cleaning. I had very little appetite all day, and I felt like I had to make a conscious decision to eat. This is amazing to me, because any other day I am completely a slave to my cravings. My cravings rule my life. I feel as if I cant make smart food decisions because my cravings act like the devil and gently seduce me to do naughty things that I shouldn't do. And not fun naughty things either, the kind that leave me feeling fat and depressed and bloated and like I want to lay around the house in my jammies the rest of the day and sulk. To be able to say to myself, "Oh, it is lunch time. Frankly I'm not feeling too hungry, so perhaps I'll just have half a pita and a grapefruit..." Come on! I mean, yes, I eat like that a lot anyway, but usually it sounds something more like this, "Ok, I'm starving, thank God it's finally lunch. I'll have an entire pita and some chips. that's healthy. And when I'm done, I've definitely earned this cookie..." Ok, so this routine is why I am getting NO WHERE in my weight loss *frowny face*.
By day 4, I was feeling slimmer and very confident. I felt like my jeans were fitting better and like my cheeks didn't look so plump. My face cheeks, not my ass cheeks. Four days is not a lot of time, but to spend 4 days not putting any junk in your body, cutting your portion sizes in half, and cutting out virtually all snacks throughout the day, it's definitely long enough to make a difference.
Day 5,6, and 7 continued on this theme, appetite cut in half, no cravings, and no desire to graze throughout the day. I felt very energized and confident in myself. Something I love about Plexus is, it's not made to "target fat cells," or "build muscle 5x faster!" or any other crazy ploys that all these different products on the market promise. All it does is suppress your appetite, so you can essentially get out of your own way. My problems are, without a doubt, eating too much and too often, not having any energy, and not having the confidence that would push me to stick with healthy habits. I do have a lot of healthy habits, but after years of being pretty good to my body and not seeing the results I want to see, I have found myself at a point where I'm starting to feel like there's no hope, and that no matter what I do, it's never going to change anything. I need something that will give me a little kick in the ass, knock me off this plateau I've been stuck on, and just get me moving again. For all that, I am excited to say that I believe Plexus is my solution. At the end of my 7-day experiment, I had lost 3 pounds, 1/2 inch from my waist, 1 1/4 inch from my hips, and 1/4 inch from each of my thighs. I invite you to check out the product for yourself and maybe try a challenge pack like I did. I believe that this product could help a lot of people and I'm excited to be a part of it!
http://christilewis.myplexusproducts.com/
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Thursday, June 27, 2013
6/27/2013
for as long as i can remember, i have been consumed with the idea that i am not good enough. this mindset manifested itself primarily in the form of my body image. i always believed that if i could just lose weight, i would magically have all the happiness and confidence in the world. so for years, i focused on losing weight. on days that i didn't do well, i felt completely worthless, ugly, disgusting. there were days that i wouldn't leave the house simply because i didn't want to go through the hassle of finding something to wear that didn't make me feel like a whale. my confidence was so low, i was afraid to go anywhere alone because i was convinced that everyone would be staring at me and judging every inch of me. these ideas plagued me and kept me caged up by my own mind. i had no life, no happiness. moving to germany saved my life. there's something about being forced out of everything you have ever known, everything familiar, to cause a person to really look into themselves to survive. when i got here, suddenly i had no other option but to learn to stand on my own feet. i had my first epiphany: i have my own life to live, for only myself, no one else. i dont need to care if other people are looking at me and judging me for one thing or another... i cannot shape myself around what i think other people want to see, other people whom i will never speak to and probably never see again. we all get this gift called life, and we all have the right to choose our own path. no one has the right to determine our path for us. if i don't live for me, who will? this marked the first time in my life that i allowed myself to look inside and ask, "what do I want?" i realized that if something in my life is making me unhappy, it is up to me to change it, no one else can. i had to learn to stop relying on everyone else to make me happy, no one else should have to carry that burden. so i buckled down and got serious about losing weight since that was my biggest problem. i did really great and came into the healthiest period of my life. then i got pregnant and lost everything i had worked so hard for. i fell back into a deep depression about my appearance. then i had my second epiphany: my weight and outward appearance should not be what defines me. there is so much more to me than my looks. my weight is going to fluctuate throughout my life, my looks are going to change. my self-confidence needs to be anchored in something deeper than my appearance. so many women could name 10 things they don't like about themselves without even stopping to think. but you ask them to name 10 things they like and they are stumped. this is horrible! every person has so much more to offer this world besides physical beauty. otherwise we would live in a world of beautiful idiots... so i set off on a journey to discover REAL things about me that i love. i have found that even though my weight is the same, i feel more confident in myself that ever before. i am kind, understanding, accepting, generous; i believe in love in all its forms, fairness, forgiveness, everyone's right to their own opinion; i trust God, nature, and myself; i'm eager to learn, to grow, to constantly change and improve myself; i love all forms of art and self-expression, silence, introspection; i have been given incredible blessings- my babies, a wonderful husband, amazing opportunities to learn different cultures and see so much of the world, a mind capable of contemplating all these things, and a faith in God that could truly carry me through anything. next to all these amazing things, what's a few extra pounds? what right do i have to complain about anything when there is really so much sadness and evil in this world? which brings me to my third epiphany: there is absolutely nothing in this world that i can control besides my own mind. i get to decide who i am, where i go in life, and who gets to join me. i do not have to accept anything into my life that i don't want. i decide what to care about, what to believe in, who to listen to, and who gets to affect me. i am smart and powerful and important. people who understand their strengths, accept their faults, and know how to love every piece of themselves that makes them the beautiful person they are, are the ones who hold the key to real happiness.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
week 5
today, i am going to address the idea of "cheat days." i cant tell you how many people i have known who somehow convince themselves that cheat days are a good idea. they justify it by saying that the only way they can stick to a diet during the week, is by promising themselves all of their cravings on their cheat day. here is why cheat days are bad. first of all, lets all remember that you have to burn an additional 3500 calories in order to lose one lb of fat. now lets say that you do really good monday through saturday and burn an extra 583 calories a day in order to lose your one lb that week. then on sunday you "reward" yourself by eating all the things you craved through the week. pizza, ice cream, starbucks... the list goes on and on. with this kind of mindset, it is only too easy to ingest those 3500 calories you just burned through the week. and then lo and behold, you have hit a plateau! imagine that...
if there is something that you are craving that you know is less than great for yourself, here's a new idea: let yourself have a little. watch your portion sizes, but go ahead and allow yourself some. this is much better than going through the vicious cycle i outlined above. or even better, find a healthy alternative that will satisfy your craving while still keeping you on track. for example, if what you crave is a donut with chocolate icing, try a toasted whole wheat bagel with nutella. this is somethiing you could enjoy as an every day snack if you wanted to. i have come to believe that with a little creativity, any recipe can be made healthy. or at least a healthy alternative can be found. go ahead and challenge me if you dont believe me. tell me your favorite unhealthy dish. the one you always crave that has sabotaged your efforts and i will try my best to come up with a recipe for a healthy version/ alternative. here's some simple substitutions: applesauce for butter in baked goods, honey or agave for sugar, and plain greek yogurt for mayo and sour cream. greek yogurt is also good frozen in place of ice cream.
i hate the word "diet." this word implies that you are making a temporary change to your eating habits in order to reach a certain goal you have set for yourself. it's easy when you have set aside 6 weeks to be on a "diet." but when those 6 weeks are over what will you do? go off your diet and back to the habits that made you unhealthy in the first place. this is why it's so important to make this a lifestyle change, to learn how to be healthy. it takes time, practice, research, and support. next time your friend offers you a cookie, instead of reminding her that you cant eat it because you are on a "diet," tell her, "no thank you, i have chosen to live a healthier lifestyle. would you like to try a bit of my peanut butter sticky roll?" not only will this make you feel great about yourself, but you may also inspire your friend to crack down and lose those 15 lbs she has been struggling with for the last 2 years.
why do we allow food to have such a strong hold over us? why do our lives revolve around food? and over-processed, sugar-saturated, disease-causing food at that. take a minute to think about what you are putting into your body. where has it been? what has it gone through from the moment it was picked or butchered or whatever to the moment it hits your table? how many people have touched it? did those people wash their hands after they went to the bathroom? (yuck i'm grossing myself out here)... of course i know that we dont all have the ability to grow our own food and raise our own meat, but find a farmers market near you, find your local butcher, your local bakery. you wouldnt believe how much better fresh tastes when you have only known the stuff you get from walmart. we have the power to control what is sold in our country. if there wasnt such a demand for crap, there wouldnt be such a market for it. even in germany where the three food groups are beer, sausage, and bread, one might come to wonder why you never see a fat german. it's because quality means something to germans. even in the smallest german village (and trust me, they can get pretty small) you will always find a bakery, a butcher, and fresh fruits and veggies. what i'm getting at here is preservatives are the devil, and our country is full of them.
ok, this is starting to sound like i'm rambling, so until next week...
recipe of the week: peanut butter sticky bar (since i mentioned it)
1/2 banana
1/4 C peanut butter (feel free to mix and match with nutella or almond butter)
1/4 C flax seeds, whole or ground
1 C granola
lg ziplock bag
mix and mash all ingredients together. spoon into bag and spread out into a log at bottom. roll bag to keep mixture in log shape and place in freezer until solid.
if there is something that you are craving that you know is less than great for yourself, here's a new idea: let yourself have a little. watch your portion sizes, but go ahead and allow yourself some. this is much better than going through the vicious cycle i outlined above. or even better, find a healthy alternative that will satisfy your craving while still keeping you on track. for example, if what you crave is a donut with chocolate icing, try a toasted whole wheat bagel with nutella. this is somethiing you could enjoy as an every day snack if you wanted to. i have come to believe that with a little creativity, any recipe can be made healthy. or at least a healthy alternative can be found. go ahead and challenge me if you dont believe me. tell me your favorite unhealthy dish. the one you always crave that has sabotaged your efforts and i will try my best to come up with a recipe for a healthy version/ alternative. here's some simple substitutions: applesauce for butter in baked goods, honey or agave for sugar, and plain greek yogurt for mayo and sour cream. greek yogurt is also good frozen in place of ice cream.
i hate the word "diet." this word implies that you are making a temporary change to your eating habits in order to reach a certain goal you have set for yourself. it's easy when you have set aside 6 weeks to be on a "diet." but when those 6 weeks are over what will you do? go off your diet and back to the habits that made you unhealthy in the first place. this is why it's so important to make this a lifestyle change, to learn how to be healthy. it takes time, practice, research, and support. next time your friend offers you a cookie, instead of reminding her that you cant eat it because you are on a "diet," tell her, "no thank you, i have chosen to live a healthier lifestyle. would you like to try a bit of my peanut butter sticky roll?" not only will this make you feel great about yourself, but you may also inspire your friend to crack down and lose those 15 lbs she has been struggling with for the last 2 years.
why do we allow food to have such a strong hold over us? why do our lives revolve around food? and over-processed, sugar-saturated, disease-causing food at that. take a minute to think about what you are putting into your body. where has it been? what has it gone through from the moment it was picked or butchered or whatever to the moment it hits your table? how many people have touched it? did those people wash their hands after they went to the bathroom? (yuck i'm grossing myself out here)... of course i know that we dont all have the ability to grow our own food and raise our own meat, but find a farmers market near you, find your local butcher, your local bakery. you wouldnt believe how much better fresh tastes when you have only known the stuff you get from walmart. we have the power to control what is sold in our country. if there wasnt such a demand for crap, there wouldnt be such a market for it. even in germany where the three food groups are beer, sausage, and bread, one might come to wonder why you never see a fat german. it's because quality means something to germans. even in the smallest german village (and trust me, they can get pretty small) you will always find a bakery, a butcher, and fresh fruits and veggies. what i'm getting at here is preservatives are the devil, and our country is full of them.
ok, this is starting to sound like i'm rambling, so until next week...
recipe of the week: peanut butter sticky bar (since i mentioned it)
1/2 banana
1/4 C peanut butter (feel free to mix and match with nutella or almond butter)
1/4 C flax seeds, whole or ground
1 C granola
lg ziplock bag
mix and mash all ingredients together. spoon into bag and spread out into a log at bottom. roll bag to keep mixture in log shape and place in freezer until solid.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
week 4
i didnt write last week, i didnt have much to report. i still dont really, but i dont want to miss 2 weeks in a row... i had another weigh in yesterday. i lost 1.2 lbs. i'm happy that it's a loss, but that's 1.2 in 2 weeks. so it's not that great. this last weekend was not good on the diet side of things. it was a 4 day so we went to bamberg and we didnt make very healthy food choices during our trip. i wont go into too much detail, but there were brownies and bacon involved. bad christi... so i wonder what the scale would have said to me if i had behaved myself. going into the weigh in, part of me was hoping for a crappy number because that more than anything will get me back on track. so to me, the number was perfect. it was still a loss, but it did not reflect what i am capable of. monday we are going back to bamberg for the whole week. jake has some work to do down there and i'm just going to get the f*** outta baumholder for a while. and this time, i am taking over the menu. no more crap. i'm gonna cook there just like i would here. i <3 our friends that we always stay with very much, but they are skinny people and have a lot of junk in their kitchen. ugh, if only i was better at saying "no" to sweets!! i often wish that i didnt have any taste buds. jake thinks i'm crazy, but how easy would it be to eat healthy if it all tasted the same?
so, 2 new developments since my last entry. one, zumba started on tuesday! yay! my knees are still giving me a little attitude, but they're not cussing me out yet, so i'm taking that as a good sign. i believe a little strain on them will only make them stronger, as long as i dont push too hard. i am getting so sick of them holding me back. i want so bad to jump into this and push myself to my limits, but i have to be smart about this. a serious injury is not going to help me in any way. two, i signed up to be a beachbody coach. i'm a little nervous, as i always am when i start something new, but i think once i learn the ins and outs of the business, it's going to be right up my alley.
i ordered Les Mills Combat, another trusty beachbody program. i'm super excited for this one cause it's a martial arts inspired workout. any workout that involves punching and kicking keeps me pumped and coming back for more. what can i say, i'm a violent person :).
recipe of the week: Stuffed Peppers
3 bell peppers, cut in half length wise
1/2 lb ground turkey or lean ground beef
1 T beef seasoning, i use Weber Gourmet Burger seasoning
1 can black beans, rinsed
1 clove garlic
1 small red onion, finely chopped
1/2 C quinoa
1 C water
2 T cooking wine
1/4 C shredded cheese (optional)
preheat oven to 400. bring 1 C water to boil. add quinoa and cook until water is absorbed, about 10 mins. combine meat, seasoning, garlic, and onion into large skillet and cook until meat is almost browned. add black beans and continue cooking until meat is done. add cooked quinoa to meat mixture and mix well. spoon into pepper halves. place pepper halves into 13 x 9 baking dish and pour cooking wine into bottom of baking dish. bake for 30 minutes. sprinkle cheese onto tops for last 5 mins of baking if desired.
so, 2 new developments since my last entry. one, zumba started on tuesday! yay! my knees are still giving me a little attitude, but they're not cussing me out yet, so i'm taking that as a good sign. i believe a little strain on them will only make them stronger, as long as i dont push too hard. i am getting so sick of them holding me back. i want so bad to jump into this and push myself to my limits, but i have to be smart about this. a serious injury is not going to help me in any way. two, i signed up to be a beachbody coach. i'm a little nervous, as i always am when i start something new, but i think once i learn the ins and outs of the business, it's going to be right up my alley.
i ordered Les Mills Combat, another trusty beachbody program. i'm super excited for this one cause it's a martial arts inspired workout. any workout that involves punching and kicking keeps me pumped and coming back for more. what can i say, i'm a violent person :).
recipe of the week: Stuffed Peppers
3 bell peppers, cut in half length wise
1/2 lb ground turkey or lean ground beef
1 T beef seasoning, i use Weber Gourmet Burger seasoning
1 can black beans, rinsed
1 clove garlic
1 small red onion, finely chopped
1/2 C quinoa
1 C water
2 T cooking wine
1/4 C shredded cheese (optional)
preheat oven to 400. bring 1 C water to boil. add quinoa and cook until water is absorbed, about 10 mins. combine meat, seasoning, garlic, and onion into large skillet and cook until meat is almost browned. add black beans and continue cooking until meat is done. add cooked quinoa to meat mixture and mix well. spoon into pepper halves. place pepper halves into 13 x 9 baking dish and pour cooking wine into bottom of baking dish. bake for 30 minutes. sprinkle cheese onto tops for last 5 mins of baking if desired.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
week two
this week has been a struggle for me to find a work out that works. i started insanity and that was going pretty well. i (hated hated HATED!!) liked it, and i loved that jake was doing it with me. it was a (torturous) fun way for husband and wife to bond. but then my damn knees started acting up. mostly my right one. in the midst of one workout, we were squatting and i happened to glance at my knee and saw a huge lump on the side. my knees had been bothering me for a few weeks but i just figured i would tough it out and they would get stronger as i went. but that lump was not normal. so i decided to stop that for now, until my body gets stronger. insanity is not exactly a workout program that you should just jump into while in horrible shape. so my new plan is to get back into running and supplement with some p90x. i'm pretty excited, i have missed my time with tony horton. i like him so much more than shaun t :).
the diet part has been easy. that part is always easy for me. i have my portion sizes under control and i'm working on including more veggies. for example, one of my snacks yesterday was half a bell pepper and a handful of walnuts. i must be doing something right because at my weigh in today i have already lost 1.8 lbs and .3 % in just 5 days. so i'm feeling pretty good.
this is not just about vanity for me. yes, it is going to feel GREAT to rock the short shorts this summer, to go swimming without that annoying voice in the back of my head saying, "omg i wish i was more covered up, everyone is looking at me!" to go clothes shopping and come home feeling accomplished instead of depressed... but all of these things are just by products for what i really want. i have shit to do in my life. i have goals and dreams. i am an athlete at heart and my weight has always held me back from what i really want to do. i want to be a rock climber, to raft some III and IV rapids and know that i can trust the strength of my body to keep me in the raft (i'm not too interested in V cause, you know, i have kids to live for lol), i want to learn to box, i want to hike the Appalachian trail, i want to play soccer, i want to get scuba certified (which doesnt have as much to do with getting strong as with not wanting to be that fat chick in the wet suit in front of a bunch of random people. no thank you.) and so many other things that, yes, fat people can do, but they just plain wont enjoy it like someone who is in great shape. i'm doing this to get strong because i dont want to just "get through" these things, i want to rock that shit. i look back at myself 10 years ago, and i was so self conscience. i wore hoodies in 100 degree weather because i didnt want anyone to see my body. ugh, and i am still struggling with this. ten years from now, i do not want to still be doing this. this is no way to live my life. i am so ready to move on to the real stuff.
i developed this crazy idea last night at 1230 when i was trying to force my brain to shut off so i could go to sleep. i think i might enjoy being a personal trainer. i love fitness. i love working out (once i get on track) and i LOVE helping other people stay motivated and reach their goals. i do it all the time. if you are around me while i have my mind right, you are going to get preached to about health and fitness, there's just no way around it. a wise person once told me (lily, you'll like this) figure out what you love to do in your spare time, and then find a way to turn that into a paycheck (see, i listen when you talk). and as far as i'm concerned, the best trainers are the one who have done the journey themselves. if this idea sticks, it's going to be a great motivator to get into better shape than i ever thought i could be.
oh and, since i cant seem to get though a blog without mentioning zumba, i will probably get my zumba certification at some point too. ahh, if zumba were a man...
i'm going to tell a story that's going to sound like i'm going way off track but i promise i will tie it up in the end. let me tell you a little about florence, italy. it is so dirty. it smells like sewer and exhaust. the number of people/ square foot ratio is like 5/1. it's suffocating, hectic, and if you breathe the dirty air there for longer than an hour you're gonna have a headache. it is one of my least favorite places we've been so far. now let me tell you about my favorite place! lauterbrucken, switzerland... omg, heaven on earth. there are no roads to this village, you have to take the train. it is nestled into the side of a mountain right smack dab in the middle of the swiss alps. it is so quiet and peaceful, the people are so nice (there is simply no way to be unhappy when you are surrounded by this much beauty), the air... wow, i never knew air could smell that way. it is like an ice cold glass of cucumber water on a hot summer day. crisp, clean, it smells like mud and freshly cut grass. the mountains are commanding and majestic. there is no noise but the sound of sheep and the occasional avalanche (on the other side of the ridge, thank goodness). if i could stay there forever, i would want for nothing else in the world.
now, having spent most of my life unhealthy, and just parts here and there healthy, i compare the way i feel when i am unhealthy to florence. my body feels sick, slow, clogged up. but when i put my effort into making myself healthy with clean foods and the right activity level, i feel like lauterbrucken inside. clean, crisp, ready to take on the world. if you have spent your life being unhealthy, put in the time to learn how to be healthy. it is a wonderful feeling.
recipe of the week: Bruschetta chicken
1/4 C sun-dried tomato vinaigrette dressing
4 boneless chicken breasts
1 medium tomato, diced
1/2 C low moisture, part skim mozzarella cheese
1/4 C chopped fresh basil
preheat oven to 350. combine chicken and 2 T dressing in ziploc. turn over several times to coat and refrigerate for 10 mins. remove chicken from marinade and cook in baking pan for 15 mins. meanwhile, combine remaining 2 T dressing, tomato, basil, and cheese, mix well. turn chicken over and cover with tomato mixture. bake another 15 mins.
the diet part has been easy. that part is always easy for me. i have my portion sizes under control and i'm working on including more veggies. for example, one of my snacks yesterday was half a bell pepper and a handful of walnuts. i must be doing something right because at my weigh in today i have already lost 1.8 lbs and .3 % in just 5 days. so i'm feeling pretty good.
this is not just about vanity for me. yes, it is going to feel GREAT to rock the short shorts this summer, to go swimming without that annoying voice in the back of my head saying, "omg i wish i was more covered up, everyone is looking at me!" to go clothes shopping and come home feeling accomplished instead of depressed... but all of these things are just by products for what i really want. i have shit to do in my life. i have goals and dreams. i am an athlete at heart and my weight has always held me back from what i really want to do. i want to be a rock climber, to raft some III and IV rapids and know that i can trust the strength of my body to keep me in the raft (i'm not too interested in V cause, you know, i have kids to live for lol), i want to learn to box, i want to hike the Appalachian trail, i want to play soccer, i want to get scuba certified (which doesnt have as much to do with getting strong as with not wanting to be that fat chick in the wet suit in front of a bunch of random people. no thank you.) and so many other things that, yes, fat people can do, but they just plain wont enjoy it like someone who is in great shape. i'm doing this to get strong because i dont want to just "get through" these things, i want to rock that shit. i look back at myself 10 years ago, and i was so self conscience. i wore hoodies in 100 degree weather because i didnt want anyone to see my body. ugh, and i am still struggling with this. ten years from now, i do not want to still be doing this. this is no way to live my life. i am so ready to move on to the real stuff.
i developed this crazy idea last night at 1230 when i was trying to force my brain to shut off so i could go to sleep. i think i might enjoy being a personal trainer. i love fitness. i love working out (once i get on track) and i LOVE helping other people stay motivated and reach their goals. i do it all the time. if you are around me while i have my mind right, you are going to get preached to about health and fitness, there's just no way around it. a wise person once told me (lily, you'll like this) figure out what you love to do in your spare time, and then find a way to turn that into a paycheck (see, i listen when you talk). and as far as i'm concerned, the best trainers are the one who have done the journey themselves. if this idea sticks, it's going to be a great motivator to get into better shape than i ever thought i could be.
oh and, since i cant seem to get though a blog without mentioning zumba, i will probably get my zumba certification at some point too. ahh, if zumba were a man...
i'm going to tell a story that's going to sound like i'm going way off track but i promise i will tie it up in the end. let me tell you a little about florence, italy. it is so dirty. it smells like sewer and exhaust. the number of people/ square foot ratio is like 5/1. it's suffocating, hectic, and if you breathe the dirty air there for longer than an hour you're gonna have a headache. it is one of my least favorite places we've been so far. now let me tell you about my favorite place! lauterbrucken, switzerland... omg, heaven on earth. there are no roads to this village, you have to take the train. it is nestled into the side of a mountain right smack dab in the middle of the swiss alps. it is so quiet and peaceful, the people are so nice (there is simply no way to be unhappy when you are surrounded by this much beauty), the air... wow, i never knew air could smell that way. it is like an ice cold glass of cucumber water on a hot summer day. crisp, clean, it smells like mud and freshly cut grass. the mountains are commanding and majestic. there is no noise but the sound of sheep and the occasional avalanche (on the other side of the ridge, thank goodness). if i could stay there forever, i would want for nothing else in the world.
now, having spent most of my life unhealthy, and just parts here and there healthy, i compare the way i feel when i am unhealthy to florence. my body feels sick, slow, clogged up. but when i put my effort into making myself healthy with clean foods and the right activity level, i feel like lauterbrucken inside. clean, crisp, ready to take on the world. if you have spent your life being unhealthy, put in the time to learn how to be healthy. it is a wonderful feeling.
recipe of the week: Bruschetta chicken
1/4 C sun-dried tomato vinaigrette dressing
4 boneless chicken breasts
1 medium tomato, diced
1/2 C low moisture, part skim mozzarella cheese
1/4 C chopped fresh basil
preheat oven to 350. combine chicken and 2 T dressing in ziploc. turn over several times to coat and refrigerate for 10 mins. remove chicken from marinade and cook in baking pan for 15 mins. meanwhile, combine remaining 2 T dressing, tomato, basil, and cheese, mix well. turn chicken over and cover with tomato mixture. bake another 15 mins.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
week one
it's a brand new year. so many new possibilities, so many new opportunities. for as long as i can remember, my new years resolution has always been to lose weight. to make that my resolution again almost seems like guaranteeing i will fail. so instead my resolution is to become a person i am proud to be. this encompasses the weight loss thing, but it also includes so much more. like making good on my promises to myself...
this past week has not been good as far as eating healthy and working out. this week has pretty much been my farewell to food. fortunately i didnt gain anything. now i feel ready to say goodbye to all the stuff i think i want. something that helped me so much last time i did this was telling myself that i only have to give up the junk for 12 weeks. but the trick is that by the end of the 12 weeks you dont want that crap anymore. your body gets used to running off the right kind of fuel and you no longer crave the bad stuff. it's a process to flush all that stuff out of your system. expect to mess up. quitting things cold turkey is not easy, nor recommended. my goals for this week are to get my portion sizes to where they should be. portion sizes are so important. in a culture that supersizes everything, it's easy to lose sight of how much we really should be eating. imagine a campfire. if you throw a huge log on the fire it will take forever to burn that log. but if you throw a few sticks in, they will be gone in no time. that pretty much sums up your metabolism. instead of throwing a huge load on, eating several small meals a day will keep your metabolism burning at a steady rate, prevent you from eating too much, and prevent you from eating when you're not really hungry. learn what it feels like to really be hungry. and learn what it feels like to be full. this week, i will focus on tuning into my body so that i can start working with my metabolism the right way, instead of just trying to manipulate it to do what i want.
also this week i will be doing a push-up challenge. my upper body strength is pitiful. i could not do a push-up to save my life. so my challenge is, for this week i will do 50 push-ups on my knees per day. i can spread the 50 out throughout the day, but no less than 10 at a time. each interval has to be challenging, or else nothing will get accomplished. next week i will move up to 20 real push-ups a day, no less than 5 in an interval. each week the challenge will get harder until i can keep up with shaun t.
the gym is organizing a weight loss competition. weigh-ins are on the 4th. i've got some good friends doing it with me. just one more way to keep myself on track. no one wants to be the guy who didnt lose any weight that week. or god forbid, gains weight. there should be a zumba class starting soon i hope, because zumba does something for me that nothing else does. i actually look forward to working out. i actually wish that i could do it every day. that is the key to success. finding a workout that you truly enjoy. for some, that may be lifting weights at the gym. for some it may be running, or swimming, or hiking, or insanity in the living room. for me it is zumba all the way baby.
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i found this picture the other day. this was when we first got to germany, 30 lbs ago. i still had a ways to go from that point, but i was happy like that. by april 1 i want to be back there. 30 lbs in 3 months is definitely doable. also, biggest loser starts on the 6th! that show is such a huge inspiration. if those 400 lb people can do this, then what excuse could i possibly come up with? watching that really keeps me pumped up and motivated.
recipe of the week: 20- minute applesauce cookies
this past week has not been good as far as eating healthy and working out. this week has pretty much been my farewell to food. fortunately i didnt gain anything. now i feel ready to say goodbye to all the stuff i think i want. something that helped me so much last time i did this was telling myself that i only have to give up the junk for 12 weeks. but the trick is that by the end of the 12 weeks you dont want that crap anymore. your body gets used to running off the right kind of fuel and you no longer crave the bad stuff. it's a process to flush all that stuff out of your system. expect to mess up. quitting things cold turkey is not easy, nor recommended. my goals for this week are to get my portion sizes to where they should be. portion sizes are so important. in a culture that supersizes everything, it's easy to lose sight of how much we really should be eating. imagine a campfire. if you throw a huge log on the fire it will take forever to burn that log. but if you throw a few sticks in, they will be gone in no time. that pretty much sums up your metabolism. instead of throwing a huge load on, eating several small meals a day will keep your metabolism burning at a steady rate, prevent you from eating too much, and prevent you from eating when you're not really hungry. learn what it feels like to really be hungry. and learn what it feels like to be full. this week, i will focus on tuning into my body so that i can start working with my metabolism the right way, instead of just trying to manipulate it to do what i want.
also this week i will be doing a push-up challenge. my upper body strength is pitiful. i could not do a push-up to save my life. so my challenge is, for this week i will do 50 push-ups on my knees per day. i can spread the 50 out throughout the day, but no less than 10 at a time. each interval has to be challenging, or else nothing will get accomplished. next week i will move up to 20 real push-ups a day, no less than 5 in an interval. each week the challenge will get harder until i can keep up with shaun t.
the gym is organizing a weight loss competition. weigh-ins are on the 4th. i've got some good friends doing it with me. just one more way to keep myself on track. no one wants to be the guy who didnt lose any weight that week. or god forbid, gains weight. there should be a zumba class starting soon i hope, because zumba does something for me that nothing else does. i actually look forward to working out. i actually wish that i could do it every day. that is the key to success. finding a workout that you truly enjoy. for some, that may be lifting weights at the gym. for some it may be running, or swimming, or hiking, or insanity in the living room. for me it is zumba all the way baby.
recipe of the week: 20- minute applesauce cookies
Ingredients:
3 ripe bananas
2 c. rolled oats
1/3 c. applesauce
1 tsp. vanilla extract
1 tbsp. ground flax
1/2 c. dried cherries
3 ripe bananas
2 c. rolled oats
1/3 c. applesauce
1 tsp. vanilla extract
1 tbsp. ground flax
1/2 c. dried cherries
Directions:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Using a fork, mash the bananas in a bowl. Stir in oats, applesauce, dried cherries, flax and vanilla extract. Mix batter well. Drop by rounded spoonfuls onto a lined cookie sheet. Bake for 20 minutes.
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Using a fork, mash the bananas in a bowl. Stir in oats, applesauce, dried cherries, flax and vanilla extract. Mix batter well. Drop by rounded spoonfuls onto a lined cookie sheet. Bake for 20 minutes.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
preamble
anyone who has known me for any amount of time can tell you that i have struggled with my weight for as long as i can remember. even back in my high school days, when i actually had a cute little body, i had this idea firmly planted in my head that i was too fat. my self-esteem has suffered greatly because of this mindset that i have always been in. i spend most of my time depressed and ashamed of myself and trying to avoid mirrors. i have been on a weight loss journey for a long long time. at my fattest i weighed 220 lbs. most ppl go to college and gain a few pounds, the "freshman 10" if you will, but for me it was more the "freshman 60." i remember the exact moment that opened my eyes to what i was becoming. i was sitting in my physics class watching all the other students file in and find their seat, and one of my classmates caught my attention. she had to be pushing 400 lbs. i watched her waddle up a few steps and then try to squeeze behind a desk. and it hit me. if i kept going the way i was, that would be me in no time at all. well, i just couldnt have that. back then it was easy because i had gotten entirely too comfortable with fast food and soda. you cut those 2 things out and anyone could drop weight like it's going out of style. i started studying. took a nutrition class. got myself comfortable with what nutrition really was, and then i buckled down. i lost 50 lbs and got to a place where i was finally happy with myself for the first time in my life. around that time i also dropped some other baggage that i was hooked to, got my CNA, and moved to colorado springs. a brand new start. i was flying high and living my life the way i really wanted. i was truly happy. i fell in love, got married and then got surprised by our first little monster. pregnancy is not the best thing for someone who recently lost a lot of weight and had fragile will power. i put those 50 lbs right back on. one upside of pregnancy weight though, you can drop 20 lbs in one big poop. when kailey was born, the hubby was also deployed, and for some reason it's so much easier to focus when the man is not in the house. by the time he got home i had lost all the weight and was back to my happy place. when we came to germany, i was looking and feeling good. of course i gained some weight back due to the delicious food and beer, but 10 lbs is really nothing to fret over. 10 lbs is easy after losing 50. then i found Zumba and omg, nothing has ever done so much for me and my fitness journey. finally, a workout that i LOVED and looked forward to. i was doing it 2-4 times a week, i joined a couple other gym classes, and i was exploring other fun ways to get a work out in and enjoy my new body. i quickly got into the best shape of my life and was well on my way to my final goal and i was loving every step. then the damn pregnancy bug bit again. once again i gained a bunch of weight, pooped half of it out, and now i am 20 down from the pregnancy weight, 20 up from my pre-pregnancy weight, and about 50 from my goal weight. 50 lbs is a nice number for me because i have done it before so i know i can do it again. the hard part is getting started. getting into a workout routine, flushing all junk food out of the house and replacing it with healthy stuff, monitoring the food you eat to make sure you are getting a well rounded diet as per the food pyramid, and to also make sure that you are getting the right number of calories. i dont know why weight loss has to be so damn hard, but alas, it is. this has always been my biggest goal in life. i want to be happy and healthy. i want to be strong so i can achieve my other goals. i feel like if i can conquer this evil thing that has been hanging over my life for so long then i can conquer anything. but most of all, in a society that already causes girls such heartache and low self esteem, i will not let my daughter watch me hate myself. i will not teach her to stew in her own self-pity instead of doing whatever it takes to get to where you want to go. i will never utter the words, "i'm so fat," or "i hate my body," or "i just wish i could look like that," or any other atrocity that would make her feel that bad body image is the norm. and i will not fake it, because, well, you just cant fake confidence no matter how hard you try. so with the help of shaun t, tony horton, my daughter, and my hubby, i will end this stage of my life once and for all and move on to bigger and better things. and i hope that my journey can help others to start their own.
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